standing in the rainn...

safety of my bathroom

the sun has been down for hours now
it's late and my body's sore from today
his voice through the wire of the telephone stings
stings my heart with each word he speaks
guilt runs down my cheek
and drips onto the photograph i hold so close to my heart
to try to feel the emotion through the picture
but all i feel is the emotion of...
the silence sucking out time from its place
and holding it there for what seems like eternity
the numbers are changing but the situation isnt
an intense feeling of confusion overtakes my jaw
and doesnt let me move
i'm stuck in the darkness of the safety of my bathroom
listening to love trying to figure itself out
the phone is now wet
and my cheeks damp with tears
i love you
and want you to understand and rememeber that
still sitting there i think of all that's been said
and all i can wonder is how i'll be able
to get myself up in the morning
but the last whisper goodbye
puts me calmly to sleep
and i wake up with you beating my heart.