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today:

eric

new

both

HOLY SHIT

my bruises, from brand new


me and carly bear!


hahha crazy head


yeah, we rule


hotties!

so pretty much, if you ever come to my house, DON'T FORGET to remind me to take a picture with you, with my dads new computer. cause its jokes and i love it. haha.

other than that... i've been having lots of fun. working, hanging out with aaron and tori, and josh and mack, skateboarding, watching movies, taking pictures, listening to music, going to the beach, running in the rain, drinking lots of starbucks...

and, i went to Brand New last night!:

and saw mark and michael. it was good times! but like i said earlier, i got lots of bruises, and i am in pain. but i deal. and, i also made a painting the other week when i was bored at home:

it's a summer painting. i think it's pretty decent.
now i'm just pumped for what's to come. warped tour! maybe some other shows... pretty much just doing MORE of what i've been doing the past few months, cause it's been pretty friggen sweet. time to go eat! i'm peacin' out.

here's some Against Me! lyrics:

song lyrics sung at the top of our lungs so desperately
like i believe in a power that is of and by the people
i believe in an art that cannot be compromised
i believe all will endure, and all will overcome
and i will sing it until i no longer remember the reason
what was the reason?

love!

stupid

live closer.

and there's nothing i can say to erase those days

somewhat scared

somewhat

i am somewhat here, or there, or nowhere. i am somewhat in pain. [physically] i am somewhat scared, and excited. and impatient. and bored. i am somewhat confused? a car just pulled out of my driveway. [notice, the time] note: when i think about the future, all i see are thunderstorms. ripping and shredding everything away. the rain is like a waterfall, and i can't see where i'm going. but i see distance. and it's the kind of distance where you feel tired just looking at it. thinking about getting to the other place takes my breath away. keep talking. i don't sleep or eat or drink the way i should. note: when i see a flying species of any sort i crave attacking them with my camera:



and sometimes this happens. my strap gets in the way. it's unideal, but i deal. i like lattes with my name written on the lid. i like friends who call me and if i don't pick up they leave me a message. because i hate the phone and because they are my friends they know that. i am talking shit right now and i am sorry. i am talking to confidence. i want to see confidence in the face. cause i'm not anything enough right now.



right now, i sort of feel like this. this right here, above this sentence.
and i need to be pulled out.


ps; i started this, three hours ago.

hello, sunshine!

she's an ant. a tiny little microscopic pixel in a world that's over three billion dots per inch. she's walking on a single blade of grass so thin; getting lower and lower as she walks, with a grin, spread onto her face like sunscreen on a child. for protection, of what's unknown, to the skin. and it's the downward slope that scares her. it's the shade that hides her from the sun; the shade that makes protection seem useless. and she'll dig in the dirt, that is microscopic as well [individually of course], just like her. picking up every grain of fibre and tossing it aside, where there's a pile, accumulation, off to the right. soon to be underneath the sole of her foot.
it's there she tramples.


ps; thriftstore romance promos!

past two weeks

the past two weeks?


we went to barrie


had some coffee


did some handstands


went to quebec


stayed at my uncles place


hung out with family


and the boys


saw the band play


visited a church


played with street people


watched some street shows


came home to nice weather


& played with the baby!


so pretty much, i've been really busy the past few weeks...
besides all these things i also graduated! go me.
now it's time to relax in the sun and hang out with good people and work at chapters,
it should be a good summer!
& i'm looking forward to learning new things and seeing new places and meeting new people.
give me a call!

xo,
nicole.

ps; it's my little brothers bday today.