i'm listening

it's like i can see the horizon in front of me i can see the horizon so well that i can feel it i can taste it it is right there. but i cannot hear it. i cannot hear you. i am listening i am trying so hard to hear the waves rolling the wind blowing the breeze calling my name and telling me to just breathe. i cannot hear it. the calming sounds of the future the horizon that's in front of me is silent. or i am deaf. i cannot figure out what it is. all i know is that i am listening and i hear nothing. no one. so my breath is short my heart is fast and if i could just hear the sounds of peace i could be fine. i am trying to be fine.