morning fuckin glory

i feel like the choking is just getting tighter
around my neck i am trying to breathe
my lungs are as skinny as toothpicks by now
i find it hard but i gasp just to live
and i'm breathing in and out and the pace is getting faster
until i feel like i'm going to pass out
i take off my necklace like that was the problem
but the feeling does not go away
and my lungs do not expand
so my breath does not come back

i see the door as an exit and take the advantage
keeping the light on as if i'll forget my way back
and i leave just for the sake of leaving
i dont go any farther than the next room
but it makes such a difference
and the farther i go the more i can breathe
till i'm miles away and laughing

pigs in heaven

"yes sister, they all would cry. no one doubted she was receiving the spirit. in the years since, Alice, too, has seen the ones who shake and scream and roll their eyes back as if snakebit, but she has always doubted the sincerity of this. anybody can get worked up, if they have the intention. its peacefulness that is hard to come by on purpose."

flask

"this is the first day of my life
i swear i was born right in the doorway
i went out in the rain suddenly everything changed
they're spreading blankets on the beach
yours is the first face that i saw
i think i was blind before i met you
now i don't know where i am
i don't know where i've been
but i know where i want to go
and so i thought i'd let you know
that these things take forever
i especially am slow
but i realize that i need you
and i wondered if i could come home"

'- the greatest man alive'

safari

dignity and money

the secret that i only know
the secret that i have
fourteen days marks the time of release
and it will no longer be a secret
although the weather is just starting to change
december never seemed so close
and warm

nora

wemetconnor

vain

so i'm drinking, breathing, writing, singing

everyday up on the clock

my mind races with all my longings

but cant keep up with what i got

i hope i don't sound too ungrateful

what history gave modern man

the telephone to talk to strangers

machine guns and the camera lens

jam-packed long weekend. it was awesome.
peace hotties...

you?will.

considering the circumstances
i'm doing the best i can
and i've always tried my hardest
in this spin we seem to go around
with everything they've done to make this
so much harder to stand
i say i give myself an A for effort
we all know it could have been much worse
it makes me want to shrivel up
become a puddle in the rain
just write 'The End' across my forehead
you know i quit life everyday?
and you know you cant do both
you are not strong
therefore you are weak
and weak just doesnt cut it in this world

we should just wish the snow was ice cream
and the dirt on top was chocolate
weather
doesnt have to be so damn depressing

bazilin

let me re-introduce maself...

today has got to be the worst weather ever... i hate it. why cant it just be SUMMER already! oh well.

and from the sidelines
you see me run
until i'm out of breath.
living the good life
i left for dead
the sorrowful midwest.

well i did my best
to keep my head...

it was grass stained jeans and incompletes
and a girl from class to touch.
but you think about yourself too much
and you ruin who you love.
well all these claims at consciousness
my stray dog freedom,
let's have a nice clean cut
like a bag we buy and divvy up.

-conor

i'm doin the best i can...

h to the O V

hey andrea i miss you

dark

someone turnedoffthelights



hold your breath
bottle it up and save it for the next one
its safe to say we've been writtin' this all night

cleeever

so i already got bored with my other layout...
just wasnt enough.
haha so its paris time. you all know i had to go do a paris layout SOMEtime!

i'm not the type to wear my heart on my sleeve
but your here asking and waiting for something unseen
i just cant go do what you want me to do
and for that we frustrate over nothing
nothing relevent
nothing worth it
i feel like i could go blow a nerve
with the nonsense of everyday getting in my way
let me go sleeveless
i prefer it that way
being cold but free

and i know?

its alright its sooner or later

ambition, ambition's a tricky thing
it's like riding a unicycle on a dental floss tightrope

over a wilderness of razor blades
ambition can backfire

ambition means more

ambition means faster

ambition means better

and fell to the floor

and fell to the floor

this key is to your kingdom
this key is to your heart
neither one is a doorway
but both of them a part
so one foot in front of the other

chrissy

R.I.P Chris

city kids

city kids

there's a brilliant sky above

and a jealous moon in love

and they're starved for our attention

today i became more of a man.

The Accident

once upon a time there was a boy named jaydee. he thought he knew how to drive a motorized vehicle, but really, he didnt. it was a dark, snowy night, and cole was up in B town. B town tends to get alot of snow, being up north and all, so a night full of thick snowflakes was normal. they go on a nice midnight drive, jaydee in the drivers seat of coles very rad lookin car. comin back from the bar, jaydee is racin a little too fast for the weather, and BAM. cole is out the windshield! front right tire is leakin air like crazy. coles rad car is all over livingstone! jaydee freaks out over the safety of cole.
nevermind the uninsured vehicle he was driving.
and the poor old curb he hit so fast.

paris

(her name is paris)

how to be dead

how to be dead

[...there is a line that we cant cross. its called the inbetween. and my favourite thing to do is lie on my stomach, my face right at the inbetween, and watch. its the closest view you can get here, from my heaven...]

"When the dead are done with the living, the living can go on to other things." "What about the dead? Where do we go?" She wouldn't answer me.

Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde, for my pride...

what a beautiful thing

it burns a whole through everyone that feels it

i really cant go on sometimes
i feel like i am sitting
in an old and dirty chair all by myself.
in the center of the room
i can see everything around me
but i am gone, i am not there, i do not care.
about the things i have to do
for my life every single day
i am quite sick of this, and that, and you.