i wrote a poem,

i wrote a poem in the car:

life is the highway

it takes no time to realize
your exit just flew by
there's no such thing as U-turns here
so accelerate with no destination
you have no choice
being slow isn't tolerated here
someone else's crash brings you to a halt
you are forced to wait
everyone is connected here
you inch along, frustrated
it always seems faster in the other lane.

it's almost always faster in the other lane.

hahahahahahahahaha

i'm eating dinner.
did i mention the time?

bands

WELLLLLLL as most, or all, of you know... i have been away with kids in the way & trouble with ferguson in california! for about nine days. it was the coolest vacation ever. hands down. i miss them like crazy already and having tons of pictures to look at doesnt really help either.
BUT,

here they are!

yes i made a whole new site for them, because there's so many. i think i'll be posting all my band adventures there. but anyways, instead of blabbing on, pictures say more than words so go take a look at the awesome times i had. hope you guys enjoy them as much as i do.

now i'm going to go to bed, just to wake up and fail some school. ya know, the usual.

peace&lovins,

cali

no time to write anything except:

california is really windy.

love

bye bye brothers.
i love you!

oh jeez

Let's be honest, you know you shouldn't bother
Cause with me, it's impossible to win...

There was always
Warmth between us
There was always
Warmth between us

yo.

wow

looovin', it's what i got

so this christmas my dads D70 gave birth to my new camera, the Nikon D50. !!
she is very cute and i still have yet to name her.
but this is what she did today. LOOK!

enjoy and merry christmas even though its now over.
good day.

ick

you should have fought for it

i really thought you were a different person

carly

carly lynn montgomery
december 19th '05 4:20 pm


ten minutes later


will and carly's hands


me! ahha


aw look at her hair


cuuuuuuuuuuuuute?

this will be the worlds most photographed baby, i swear it. haha

hi guys

hi guys!

photos!

bye bye!

um

it just seems so pathetic
when you're falling
right and left
i can tell i was just
another slip in your step
i can tell you're walking
on ice

i dont believe
in one line you write cause
they all sound the same
to me
but hers wont compare
to mine
and i hope you know you're walking
on ice

who needs the fall
when you can just stay down?
someone just stay down
with me

draw!

green

the things, we do, just to stay alive.
the things we do, just to, keep ourselves alive.

stamp

i made a stamp in art class.

and this is what it looks like.

haha, this stamp is going everywhere.

like

errr hey so do you guys like these?

-cole.

snooow

snow day snow day snow day.

errrrrrrr

as freezing as it is today
your hands bare skin
tucked tightly into
pockets
white and cracked along the
edges of the seam

you missed the sun when
your decision to stay
home alone and
bedridden
took you into night inside the
creases of your dreams

now stars are out to guide
the fearless eyes of your demise
in and out of
consciousness
frost paints the tips of
everything that's seen

chinese food chinese food

into

and i, i am not into the idea of being without you.

stranded

stranded

it's like the time i
told you
that you made me feel
brand new
you traced the skin around
my eyes
my pupils gave away
my lies
i said i couldn't stay
for long
i shut my lids and
ran along
the hallways of my head
so dark
and couldn't find the door

nicolesimmen

soooola

write on rainy days it can be an inspiration.
this past rainy day it hardly rained at all. what overtook the rainstorm was an overwelming wind. it took all the leaves off of my trees and scattered them across my lawn. they stuck to my bedroom windows and to my windshield and to the ground.
i couldnt write on this rainy day because all the power went out. it was dark outside which made it dark inside. the wind sounded like it could blow my house down but i couldnt feel a thing. lieing on my couch in blankets i couldnt see a thing, or feel a thing, but i could hear the thundering wind attack us. the chairs we use in summertime blew across my lawn, a thin tree fell over my driveway. i swear it could take my house down.
at times it sounded like it was ending, everything would go quiet and the leaves would stop hitting my window. i got up to look out the window and it looked so gray. so depressing and grey and windy but hardly raining. then the table umbrella also used in summer would topple over and make a big crash and i would run back to my couch and get in my blankets. then i would listen to my little brother go out and fix it and think he was crazy. i thought i was crazy for being somewhat scared, but i swear it sounded like it could take my house down.
i went outside with my jacket on and the hood over my head and saw all the trees stripped bare from their leaves. i thought about how they couldnt even do it naturally themselves, keep the fall lasting longer. instead this rainstorm consisting of only wind did their job for them, stole what they were holding onto for so long. what if they werent ready to let go yet?

anyways. its now so extremely nice out. i stayed home and did an english project on oedipus.
it involved taking pictures so heres a few of them.

love you guys and the weather.
♥

pickies

fuck you all

i fucking hate wind

one day

best to defile

best to stay sleeping

in a while

i will awake to be a has been

hollow

one day i will

serena

i'm so an aunt in less than two months

ps; dont forget about the clocks

laaa

swim with the fishes...

pretty much... watch out.

uh... just me.

a winding road gives faith

A Winding Road Gives Faith

One star shines above
the heads of children, spraying its
rays of north through the sky,
sea blue and dark.

Like rabbits in the night
their eyes burn bright;
but run away from
headlights that are their Fate.

Oh moon! Oh stars! Oh rock
that plays his role of holding up
the loveless. They sit and stare.

All silence! Bring your righteous
being among their hearts that
are so loud. They don't know how.


Coffee burns the ripe lips of
adolescence, holding cigarettes -- such
poison! Under the star that
reminds them they are of course,

alone: like hair of different
length and color, eyes of different
size; they were so much
wider when they were Pure.

Innocence! Come like a breeze
from childhood homes, instill in them
what they once had and lost.

They yearn for your child-like presence,
to close their eyes and clean
their mind and give them trust.


Can they fail to put their faith
into what is vast and noble?
An echo of the lightning's thunder, a
promise for rain from above...

Jaws of sharks can't bite too hard to
break these bones; religious
tongue can't overcome all of their
doubt. They cannot hear.

They dream of freedom from this
Fate, run like stampedes from a
fire. Stars! Give them light, they are

in darkness. Among the millions like
themselves, swarm of flies around
the food, they are alone in their heartbreak.


The smell of another winter
congests the air of an October. Beasts
of illusion wait at their bedside,
infecting their sheets -- so cold!

Oh warmth of hopeful youth,
sit beside us on this rock. The
screams of birds soar from our
hearts; they try too hard to fly.

Lyrics of distrust assume the worst
of us, accuse us of false calamity; we
were only hiding from ourselves.

Our hearts ache, we have lost our
god. All rays of starlight, ignite the

corals of this sea, daybreak is near.

-nicolesimmen

RMR

falling stars

do you remember still the falling stars
that like swift horses through the heavens raced
and suddenly leaped across the hurdles
of our wishes--do you recall? and we
did make so many! for there were countless numbers
of stars: each time we looked above we were
astounded by the swiftness of their daring play,
while in our hearts we felt safe and secure
watching these brilliant bodies disintegrate,
knowing somehow we had survived their fall.

- Rainer Maria Rilke

owe

Just one minute ago
I had quarters, four
They were worth something, yes
But they are gone

Now I sit here annoyed
I am still hungry, my stomach
All because of the V.M., yes
It is a thief

Three minutes to go
I can get out of this room, hot
My throat it hurts, yes
I am in pain

saterdays

slightly removed

so for the past few weeks i've been chillin with the baxter family, that came from australia to visit pete. it was good times showing them around... ontario... haha. heres some pics!! they left today to go back to australia and i'm sure gonna miss them! and i cant wait to go visit you guys there when we do.

so yeah other than that i've just been trying to keep up with school and work. i've been doing okay so far but i'm currently coming down with a sickness that causes a really really sore throat, sneezing, and sniffing. thanksgiving is tomorrow i'm so excited for all the food!!

peace&love losers

xtopher

and then he held up his right hand and spread his fingers out in a fan, and i held up my left hand and spread my fingers out in a fan and we made our fingers and thumbs touch each other.

poem

i made

my way to

the living room

where i

drank to love

to the full moon

the cup

was empty

and so was i

i fell

hit my head

and closed my eyes

i woke

the next day

my stomach hurt

the note

in my hand

read: july first

so i was busy with tons of homework tonight and thank goodness i didnt have work. although, i got it all done and still did this little drawing and am now gonna go fall asleep reading.

have a good night all, cheers.

terrry

it's just that it's delicate

[ terry fox run ]

today was a chillen day, i loved it. but i'm so so tired and workin NINE TO FIVE tomorow, so i'm gonna get to bed. hope you enjoy the pictures, i sure do.

ps; i've never left a calculater in a bathroom before...

atmosphere

when soul meets body

I wish we could open our eyes

To see in all directions at the same time

I did not know your house was lying, your house did not know me. Thank god for locks on doors and stereos that play past volume twelve because that's where young souls hide. Just lock the door, just turn it up, just watch the fireworks.
The only good that has come out of this are a few more emo songs to add to our collection and maybe a picture or two.

you

maybe i dont wanna know

stare into my wall

i'm so beyond tired that i feel sick and this is currently hurting my whole body, including my heart.

a couple days ago was one of the worst days ever. at least on the top five list. and it just kept getting worse. now your prolly thinking that i'm going to expand about how my hair didnt sit right or maybe i broke a nail. but no. in fact, i'm not going to expand at all. forget i even said that.

sometimes i feel like i need to explode. or implode. whatever comes to mind first. mostly exploding because i can feel the pressure inside my body slowly expanding and making me feel like my eyes are going to pop out if i dont just let go.

when i lie down and look up i can sometimes see things float across my eye and when i try to follow it it just goes downward until i cant see it and i have to wait for it to make its way back up again. they remind me of jellyfish or something oceanlike. i then wonder if its because i have contacts and if i'm the only one that does this. i just recently read that kurt cobain did the same thing, did he wear contacts?

i find myself wondering that a whole lot. [if anyone else feels what i feel or does what i do] i've come to the conclusion that i have some kind of need for reassurance that i'm some what normal. but i'd rather just have a little thought in the back of my mind that i'm totally not. that is much more fun.

i stink at school and i need the weekend.

ps; i've decided to stop because its exactly midnight and i think it'd be cool to post at exactly midnite. goodnight.

short forms

but even that's not real

so i've started school and its alright, i guess. actually not really but hey what can ya do. the first weekend of it has been so wicked though.


i went shopping with my dad and got some cool stuff and he took this with his phone haha.

i chilled with aaron johnny and pete friday nite/saterday morning. ch ch check it OUT. i made a new pictures page to start fresh cause the other one was gettin sloow, but you can still see the old ones by clicking 'more pictures' near the top. anyways, as you could see, we went to BULK barn the store of my life and got insane amounts of candy and ringolossss!! we then went to boston pizza and then to the movies where we snuck our candy in but was too full to eat any of it anyways. we saw the exorcism of emily rose against aarons and petes will [they are chick-ens] haha but it was good i guess? just kind of disturbing of course, as that is what posessed people are... anyhow they both survived so we went back to my house and ate so much of the candy! oh good times. i then fell asleep cause i was so tired. we also went to the driving range this morning, oh i just keep getting worse! ahhh but not as bad as aaron hahah

work today was so awesome! first of all i dont require any bandages around my leg anymore cause my poison ivy is almost gone [ok lets all just scream of happiness can we?] so i can actually bend down to a bottom shelf without it being so awkward! yayyyyy, happiness. aaaalllso there was this band that played there tonite. it was the coolest thing ever, the main guy played really really amazing guitar and had a bassist drummer and another guitarist accomanying him. they were really amazing and three dollars of the proceeds of each cd they sold when to some children foundation so that was nice. they were cool guys. so that made three hours at the end of my shift go by really smoothly.

so now that the poison ivy is finally leaving i am coming down with some sort of throat cold thingy. i have an itch in my throat and have the feeling of sneezing constantly lurking in my nose. baaaah. i'm tired,

peaceoutty

"hs hs hs, omg, tnx, tote."

bah

I'M IN A MOOD LIKE NO OTHER!!

for a number of reasons, one being deandra bell.
i just get excited when i see her!

ps; this was extremely spontanious, and will stay that way.

dont talk dont talk

dont talk dont talk

i had a dream last night that i was at some cow farm and i was just about to leave but the farmer ran after me yelling at me to come back. so i did and when i went back into the barn there was a cow with a bow around its ear and a number one written on its head and the farmer was like 'i'm giving you this cow!' and i was like 'is this the best milk cow you've got?' and he was like 'yes yes of course thats why theres a number one on its head!' and then it was just this big close-up of the cow for like ten minutes and it kinda looked cartoonish but it was real.
i'd like to see what those dream interpreters think of THAT.

yesterday/last night was the most randomest thing ever. aaron and i visited Btown [thats barrie for all you brampton people] because barrie rules. we went shopping and at this one store there was this crazy australian guy that was helping us with shoes. we must have stayed at the mall for over four hours, at least.
then we decided to go to this wicked-cool party. anyone whos ANYONE was there! talk about a gooood tiiiime! i saw rachel my love and that was great. i kicked aaron in the chin really really hard by accident. i also made sure mr.taxi man new rebekah's name and that he would drive her home very safely.

now i'm going to go get ready for work.

ps; i still have poison ivy. i'm willing to infect anyone who decides they'd like to experience it.

bf5

selfless cold and reposed

as most of you know we had a little get together this past friday nite. i have finally found time to scan some pictures and they are now available to SEE. haha it was good times i must say. thanks to those who came out and didnt totally eff up my house and stayed in the morning to help put stuff away. its all for you...

my job is fun, i am busy with either that or friends, so i'm lovin this summer. unfortunately it all has to end in friggen less than a week! i could die just thinking of it... but it IS my last year and i'm so looking forward to making it crazy with all of you sexy people. mmmmlove.

we got a new blender and it makes damn good smoothies and we have a book on smoothies where it gives directions to a bunch of crazy colorful ones. so we wanted to make one that was PURPLE! that required going shopping for grape juice and blackberries cause we didnt have any, so thats what we did. but it was the funniest adventure ever cause no one knows what blackberries are! what the hell? ohhh that smoothie was rich, so good. i also watched zoolander for the first time and i think its pretty jokes! so now i'm in on all the zoolander conversations. go me.

whats new?;

nicole has poison ivy

she also has a haircut

bangs anyone?

and yep so thats pretty much it!

peace&lovin

forget

lets just forget

so last night i went with the boys once again where they played at the barrie event center. check out the pics, theyre the hottest ones yet. they also played so very good, but apparently not good enough... uhm anyways.

i also went back to the driving range yesterday. but bad news; i got worse! damn i thought going again would make me all pro but NO, i officially suck at golf. but thats ok its still tons of fun! haha. and tonight is going to be a very good night. dont worry parents, i'm sure you know we are very responsible and you have nothing to worry about! heart you.

so i just wanted to show people the new pictures i'm quite happy with, i'll catch yeh all later.

peace&love,

wow so busy

bad habits are too easy

it seems like its been so long since i've been on here, i guess it has, but no i definitely havent quit and if i did i would say instead of just stop posting. i've been seriously busy lately this is actually the first time i've been by myself long enough to even think about going on the computer. heres some news; nicole is now employed! yes yes, laugh all you want, but i AM getting paid for DOING something! wooooooo. go me. so i've gotten back from work a while ago and i keep realizing how wierd it is to say, "i've just finished work" or "i'm working till two tomorrow". its so hilarious coming from my own thoughts, i need to get used to it still. hahah. i'm funny.

last thursday i went to the el mocambo to see johns band play, it was so fun i loved it. so many people i hadnt seen in forever were there. then i went all the way to pennsylvania with the TWF guys and then ALL the way back the next day for a show in guelph. where i might add i saw hello kelly and i hadnt seen them in forever so it was good times. it was alot of driving and didnt get home till like two saterday night. they played pretty well.

anyways. i actually dont even have much to say so i'll leave you with a few pictures and love.

i'm not hiding, i'm just buying some time for us to find the back door.

ps; i'm incredibly cool

barrie

living life seperately









for more pictures of the weekend and also the ones i got developed go here! you wont regret it.

we went to barrie on sunday nite to the rock and roll diner and it was chillz times. peter baxter did his thing and everyone loved it including all the little stuffed animals we got from old men. also sat around the steingards house and learned about mannetech and all the lovely things it does for you. i think i want to start taking it in gummy bear form. [hehe] today me and aaron bought a bag of ringolos from bulk barn and put them on the tips of all of our fingers and it made us look like ringolo men and we loved it. also one of my baby lizards died and he got all shrivelled up and looked like a skeleton and when i saw it i screamed but aaron laughed and wanted to keep it. she is so disgusting and so myspace [gay]. but i bet you would all love it because it was my lizard and i named him ana because he looked so skinny and anorexic. today on the way home my tire popped less than a minute away from my house and i had the ghetto experience of having to stand on the side of the road in the middle of the night while my dad changed it for me. its a spare tire that looks like it could be on a tricycle and it was scary driving home with it. which means i have to get up early and take it to the shop so i'm going to go to dream land now. speaking of dreams i had one the other night and it was so awesome and i wanted to make sure i remembered it to tell certain people but then of course when the time came it fully removed itself from my brain, so then i cursed and said that i would start writing all my dreams down cuz that would be a really cool thing to read back on. we should all do it.

gnite.

the faint

eins, zwei, drei, vier, funf, sechs, sieben, acht,
visciouscounterpoperosionrevolution101.

guess what i ate today; a popsicle with bugs in it.
i wish there was a method to my madness. sometimes i love being myself because i get in these things where i think i can conquer the world and do and say anything i want because i am me. i want to be omnipresent. that is what i want. because wherever i am and whatever i'm doing, i usualy want to be somewhere else. and if i was everywhere at once i would be just perfect. when i'm in the car i usualy like it cold so i keep the ac up no matter the weather. goosebumps are cool to look at. it makes me think of how hairy i think my arms are and that leads to other things like how i want to be older and want to travel and end up in a different country and then get tattoos for every place i end up. and then i realize that the light is red and stop as fast as i....... my phone just rang and now i can leave.

amp the fly trap plant called venus and jab a cold fork in the spppppspeaker.

the nite out

paranoiattack

[self-conclusion]

yesterday i went up to w-dot [thats woodbridge for all you jokers out there] and aaron and i hung out doing the usual... ya know, eating, talking, eating, dancing, eating, taking pictures, watched simple life, ate, dressed up, went crazy, ate, drove around, talked to strangers, ate.... so it was a good time! haha and there are pictures to prove it, as you can see. that wasnt even HALF of them...

i'm going to eventually get a job, today is sort of a job day. i'm going to hand out some more resumes and even go to a job fair. talk about productive day nicole, wow. also kind of boring. hopefully it all goes as planned and maybe i'll be able to get some money soon!

i'm just glad i've been pretty busy lately, that is all i care about. although this busy august month means going by really fast and then school coming. .ksagnkghb;ab! that was me tapping aimlessly on the keyboard while thinking about how much that sucks.

"yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion

of self-conclusion in one simplified motion

you see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it

no matter how unbearable this misery gets."

hmmmmyess

i can't find in between

i'm back from the cottage, got back yesterday. it was such good fun and so relaxing, and i got a damn good tan! go me..........
we fished alot and that was so fun, and canoed! i saw a real moose, we caught a baby turtle so we now have another addition to our jungle. i took alot of pictures with film that are yet to be developed so thats good.

i really cant wait for the next harry potter movie to come out, i'm dieing to see it! i have dreams of it! ahhh i'm insane. but really i know yer all thinking the saaaame thing! ;)
last nite i had the experience of cooking marshmallows in a toaster oven, at two in the morning. it couldnt have gotten any better, you all should try it, they were so good! it was the best idea EVER. hahah.

so now that i'm back i need to hang out with alot of you.

ps; i'm going to go read harry potter
second ps; i'm still not over the fact that andreas sista met the jayz
third ps; ummm nora?!#%)*!!>^&