i am somewhat here, or there, or nowhere. i am somewhat in pain. [physically] i am somewhat scared, and excited. and impatient. and bored. i am somewhat confused? a car just pulled out of my driveway. [notice, the time] note: when i think about the future, all i see are thunderstorms. ripping and shredding everything away. the rain is like a waterfall, and i can't see where i'm going. but i see distance. and it's the kind of distance where you feel tired just looking at it. thinking about getting to the other place takes my breath away. keep talking. i don't sleep or eat or drink the way i should. note: when i see a flying species of any sort i crave attacking them with my camera:
and sometimes this happens. my strap gets in the way. it's unideal, but i deal. i like lattes with my name written on the lid. i like friends who call me and if i don't pick up they leave me a message. because i hate the phone and because they are my friends they know that. i am talking shit right now and i am sorry. i am talking to confidence. i want to see confidence in the face. cause i'm not anything enough right now.
right now, i sort of feel like this. this right here, above this sentence.
and i need to be pulled out.
ps; i started this, three hours ago.
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