nothing

pigoon!

SO, i have nothing very special to say. except that i made this new design and i like it. i am also going to post about... four pictures. just because i WANT to! and just for an update:

tori and i at prom

aaron can fly!

me, by aaron

one of my recent new favorites of mine

i am currently trying to pass highschool
it might be working out okay...
i still work at my lovely bookstore
i enjoy long car rides with the windows down
i am currently reading Oryx & Crake, READ IT
if you haven't yet seen Amelie, watch it this weekend
i am still waiting on college application results
i hate waking up early
i can't wait for school to be over!!
i have blisters on my heels from my new shoes,

and THAT, my friends, is all.
till next time...

xo

wknd

so prom weekend was really fun!

i posted pictures on my msnspace because there's

so many...

click here and you should be able to see them

regardless if you're on my list or not.

they are adorable, & i can't believe it's over already.

thanks for everyone who made it an awesome time!

i'm going to miss this year,

maybe...

peace&love

grounds

will you say when i'm gone away
"my lover came to me and we'd lay
in rooms unfamiliar but until now" "

...

will you say to me when i'm gone
"your face has faded but lingers on
because light strikes a deal
with each coming night"

-Iron&Wine.

dudes

i'm indestructible.



PS; the band site is UPDATED

!!

and all the way home held my camera like a bible
just wishing so bad that it held some kind of truth

yeah, they go wild.

old/new/random/never posted

for fun!

[ old/new/random/neverposted. ]

<3,
me!

things i did this week:

went downtown in the rain



got two new pairs of shoes
went downtown again in the sun
got on Much On Demand



got a tattoo







saw underneath Leah from Much's dress
she was embarassed haha
met a cool black girl that stalks VJ's
experienced Ray J
got bit by a squirrel



opar craziness
skipped last period
decided to become a magician



that's my magic wand ^^
drove, alot
walked from my home to newmarket



made our own rap song



amar took us home
had our own little concert downstairs



danced
experienced turrets



saw Rocket Summer
DANCED AGAIN
didn't see josh :(



got lost downtown but made it through...
slept in till one thirty this afternoon


all in all it was a real fun week/weekend!
thanks to all who made it awesome, i love you.

deciding again again

write it in ink, yea.

i'm thinking i'm gonna write a book one day. i don't think i want anyone to understand it. i think it's gonna be about my dreams or the lack of them. i don't think anyone will understand it.
we're gonna lie on top of a big grassy hill with nothing surrounding us but stars. [sometimes i think the stars are cameras and when we think we are looking at them, they are actually looking at us, and capturing our every move.] we talk about how the stars are acutally cameras. we talk about how there are speakers in the tree's leaves and they are whispering a kajillion things out to us. so many things we can't even think of one. [but the whispers are kind of like dreams, we'll remember them eventually.] we talk about how when you connect this star to these ones it makes a pretty shape. sometimes you say certain things and i can't look at you in the face. but when i don't look at you in the face and at the ground instead i still see your eyes. [they are with me everywhere.] it's times like these when we're together that all i can think about is sleeping. not because you're boring [you are far from that.] but because i'm curious to see what kind of dreams we can conjure up when we sleep with our heads next to each other. the possibilities are endless? i'd like to think so. it's also times like these when our dreams and our words and our thoughts create an expanse so vast above us that we are stuck inside but not claustrophic.

oh, and i like her.

deciding again

it's never ending;

yep.

i've decided that even if you don't know who you are, i know who you are. and that's what makes us special. at night i dream that we're walking down the road and all we see are dotted yellow lines going straight straight straight in front of us and we follow them. i only see two at a time so i never know where i'm going; i don't know how much you see. maybe you see four or five? it doesn't really matter. but once we walk mile by mile we get to a tree with no leaves. its branches stretch up high into the sky [everything is high up in the air with us, in so many ways it makes sense.] so we climb the tree. barefoot. but everytime we get to the end of a branch it's a new ground. so we keep climbing [i'm not very good at climbing trees, i have scratches all up my knees, and you save me from falling three times.] i'm determined to find a branch that ends in the clouds. one day i will tell you when i find it and we'll go there. and this, it's never ending. it is a recurring dream. and we all know what they say about recurring dreams.

and i know this will come true eventually cause it all happens in a dream. this morning when i saw you and i walked by and you winked at me and all i could let out was a tiny little smile; i already knew it was going to happen. we all know; we're just not smart enough to remember. [which reminds me, of the fact, that no matter how much we sleep, we'll never see our life our in full. we'll never see our death. wich reminds me, of the fact, that when i die, i hope i know i'm going to die, how much better would that be?] but i'm not talking about death because we are so much in the beginning, do me a favor, and dream about it; and write it down.

deciding

dear diary?

i've decided that i want to be in the sahara desert. not in, exactly. but floating high up in the sky in a hot air balloon so the sand doesnt burn our toes. this is with you, of course. everything is with you. the running away to an enchanted forest [us being there, of course, is what makes it enchanting.] the building of the tree house that will never fall down -- no matter how windy it gets. the discovery of all the fears we never knew we had. the scaling up mountains just to tear up our lungs from screaming out our secrets to the clouds. [we can almost touch them, that's how high we are. and our secrets float right through them, making their way to the ground like rain.] the drawers full of notes that we write to each other even though we're together all the time. the sunburns the mosquito bites the scabs that turn to scars on our skin. the sahara desert. everything is with you. i've decided that's what i want to do.
and on another note: everything is a dream that came true. you know you can't deny it. even when you think you are sleeping in nothing other than darkness, your future is playing out its course inside your head. everytime i see you it's another deja vous. [what a strange sensation that is.] and you don't even know who you are.

fun days!

Dear Diary;

yesterday my bff erin and i had a really fun camera adventure! we went to a graveyard, grassy green hills, a railroad track, and a junk yard where there was a huge empty tour bus AND a boat! it was so fun and we almost got HIT by the train. but i saved the day, of course.
anyways,
seeing how i said it was a camera adventure, heres some pictures to prove it.
i'll ttyl diary,

Love,
nicole.

rememberme&;

dear Newmarket; i'm sick of being pretty.

my car was parked across the street
and i walked around in circles
big circles around the town.
cause the sky was so damn blue i couldn't help but stare
and the night was so damn warm i could have sworn
that the air,
was from somewhere nice like California
somewhere far like California.

and as i walked i could feel in my chest,
the speed of my breathing
getting faster
and it hurt.

people stared.

it's like my eyes are screaming;
come and pick me up.
it's like my lips are screaming;
come and pick me up.
it's like my face is screaming;
come and pick me up.

but they arent.

i close the curtain to the place behind my eyes
where i reside
and my feet, they stumble off the curb.
and the cars pass so damn fast i swear i could feel them
pushing me back.
this is me in Newmarket,
nothing close to California,
and as i walk back to my car my heart slows down,

disease

not dieing from disease.

the opposite of war isn't peace,

it's CREATION.

it's sunny and breezy and they're cooking hamburgers out of the back of their pick-up truck in the middle of our school parking lot at ten thirty in the morning? yes, yes it's true; it's almost April. driving down the highway with all my windows half way down singing "take me for what I A-A-AM..!" is the one time i don't mind wind blowing in my hair. mess it up for all i care. it feels good! and it's time to go get some coffee...

us

we are so cool because we are sober and still have fun?
thanks.

bands

hey guys,
imwiththebands is updated.

hello kelly & thriftstore romance,
check it out.

love,
me;

pfft

blank page?

i'm sitting in the windowsill
and i, i get inspired by
every single gust of wind,
and every single speck of dirt
blown into my eyes:
to jump.

and when the rain comes
i wont know what to do,
i'll see your face in every raindrop, babe
and i, i'll want to follow you
down... down into the dirty ground.

it's dark and i am warm
with ashes floating up into the air
and when they land onto my shoulder,
i can smell the scent of your hair.
and i, i flick them off
and i, i do not jump;

cause babe i'm comin back inside,
i know you'll be here soon.

boo

i feel like it's summer
& i should be shopping
& drinking iced coffees & sleeping in.

& not have school lurking in the back
of my mind like a thirsty predator
seeking food!

it's like i have a devil on each shoulder
screaming at me to:
NOT DO MY WORK?

"we celebrate the sense of each other,
we have alot to give one another."

picturesbirfday

so this is my life;

this past week has been the funnest week since... i dunno, maybe last week? haha all i know is that it was EXTREMELY good times! although i am sick, it still didnt stop me from having an awesome week and an even awesomer birthday weekend!

friday night!

saterday and sunday night!

i usually like to agree with the cheesy quote, "a picture says a thousand words."
but really, for these past few days, it isnt true. there may be hundreds of pictures to prove for its awesomeness, but i could never explain how funny/amazing it really was. i'm happy!

the end.

loveNICOLE.

me

BIRTHDAY!!

so;

there will always be favorites.
i think it's impossible to be fair.
and life will never go the way we want it to.
is there always another side to the story?
can we blame our madness on heredity?
i think i believe in fate;
i think we should think like children.

back

hello everybody;

once again i'm back from a trip with the bands. this time it was a crazy spontaneous road trip for a few days, and there's tonns of pictures to prove it! it took me SO long to get them all ready and on here, so check them OUT.

i'm back and just glad to have another trip with the bands under my belt and cant wait for the next time i get to do it.

but oh no, i'm at school. this sucks.

new

HEY GUYS! d d d d do you like it??

ps; V-DAY TOMORROW!

ugh disgusted

dont hold back.dont hesitate.dont disappear.

FONDUUU

fondu anyone?! hell yes.

so my friday was the most interesting day ever. it was filled with tons of funny events!
starting the day off locking my keys in the car at starbucks,
being stranded and having to get to school.
silly grad pictures.
tori's BOOTS being stolen.
mr. vriend high in the sky and mirrors on the cieling!
law class being THE laziest class in the world!
and andrea's drivers license picture.
then of course the fondu party!
getting stuffed.
being told to quiet down at starbucks.
amittyville.
sex and the city.
FOOD CAKE CANDY EATING STAYING UP REALLY LATE.

well let me just say it was a really fun time, my girls rule.

and right now it's snowing like mad, so i decided to take some pictures!
enjoy.

lovenicole.

ps; one month till my birthday!!

secretbaby

baby!

secret!

the end!

i wrote a poem,

i wrote a poem in the car:

life is the highway

it takes no time to realize
your exit just flew by
there's no such thing as U-turns here
so accelerate with no destination
you have no choice
being slow isn't tolerated here
someone else's crash brings you to a halt
you are forced to wait
everyone is connected here
you inch along, frustrated
it always seems faster in the other lane.

it's almost always faster in the other lane.

hahahahahahahahaha

i'm eating dinner.
did i mention the time?

bands

WELLLLLLL as most, or all, of you know... i have been away with kids in the way & trouble with ferguson in california! for about nine days. it was the coolest vacation ever. hands down. i miss them like crazy already and having tons of pictures to look at doesnt really help either.
BUT,

here they are!

yes i made a whole new site for them, because there's so many. i think i'll be posting all my band adventures there. but anyways, instead of blabbing on, pictures say more than words so go take a look at the awesome times i had. hope you guys enjoy them as much as i do.

now i'm going to go to bed, just to wake up and fail some school. ya know, the usual.

peace&lovins,

cali

no time to write anything except:

california is really windy.

love

bye bye brothers.
i love you!

oh jeez

Let's be honest, you know you shouldn't bother
Cause with me, it's impossible to win...

There was always
Warmth between us
There was always
Warmth between us

yo.

wow

looovin', it's what i got

so this christmas my dads D70 gave birth to my new camera, the Nikon D50. !!
she is very cute and i still have yet to name her.
but this is what she did today. LOOK!

enjoy and merry christmas even though its now over.
good day.

ick

you should have fought for it

i really thought you were a different person

carly

carly lynn montgomery
december 19th '05 4:20 pm


ten minutes later


will and carly's hands


me! ahha


aw look at her hair


cuuuuuuuuuuuuute?

this will be the worlds most photographed baby, i swear it. haha

hi guys

hi guys!

photos!

bye bye!

um

it just seems so pathetic
when you're falling
right and left
i can tell i was just
another slip in your step
i can tell you're walking
on ice

i dont believe
in one line you write cause
they all sound the same
to me
but hers wont compare
to mine
and i hope you know you're walking
on ice

who needs the fall
when you can just stay down?
someone just stay down
with me

draw!

green

the things, we do, just to stay alive.
the things we do, just to, keep ourselves alive.

stamp

i made a stamp in art class.

and this is what it looks like.

haha, this stamp is going everywhere.

like

errr hey so do you guys like these?

-cole.

snooow

snow day snow day snow day.

errrrrrrr

as freezing as it is today
your hands bare skin
tucked tightly into
pockets
white and cracked along the
edges of the seam

you missed the sun when
your decision to stay
home alone and
bedridden
took you into night inside the
creases of your dreams

now stars are out to guide
the fearless eyes of your demise
in and out of
consciousness
frost paints the tips of
everything that's seen

chinese food chinese food

into

and i, i am not into the idea of being without you.

stranded

stranded

it's like the time i
told you
that you made me feel
brand new
you traced the skin around
my eyes
my pupils gave away
my lies
i said i couldn't stay
for long
i shut my lids and
ran along
the hallways of my head
so dark
and couldn't find the door

nicolesimmen

soooola

write on rainy days it can be an inspiration.
this past rainy day it hardly rained at all. what overtook the rainstorm was an overwelming wind. it took all the leaves off of my trees and scattered them across my lawn. they stuck to my bedroom windows and to my windshield and to the ground.
i couldnt write on this rainy day because all the power went out. it was dark outside which made it dark inside. the wind sounded like it could blow my house down but i couldnt feel a thing. lieing on my couch in blankets i couldnt see a thing, or feel a thing, but i could hear the thundering wind attack us. the chairs we use in summertime blew across my lawn, a thin tree fell over my driveway. i swear it could take my house down.
at times it sounded like it was ending, everything would go quiet and the leaves would stop hitting my window. i got up to look out the window and it looked so gray. so depressing and grey and windy but hardly raining. then the table umbrella also used in summer would topple over and make a big crash and i would run back to my couch and get in my blankets. then i would listen to my little brother go out and fix it and think he was crazy. i thought i was crazy for being somewhat scared, but i swear it sounded like it could take my house down.
i went outside with my jacket on and the hood over my head and saw all the trees stripped bare from their leaves. i thought about how they couldnt even do it naturally themselves, keep the fall lasting longer. instead this rainstorm consisting of only wind did their job for them, stole what they were holding onto for so long. what if they werent ready to let go yet?

anyways. its now so extremely nice out. i stayed home and did an english project on oedipus.
it involved taking pictures so heres a few of them.

love you guys and the weather.
♥

pickies

fuck you all

i fucking hate wind

one day

best to defile

best to stay sleeping

in a while

i will awake to be a has been

hollow

one day i will